Tum itna kyun muskura rahe ho,
kya gam hai jisko chhupa rahe ho...

It's funny how sometimes it feels great even when nothing great happened, when you had no expectations and you got nothing in return. But it feels great, because you fought for what you wanted and then, as I would put it "Kya farak padta hai!" whether you got it or not. For the record, I fought for the one thing I really wanted, and I did not get it, not the way I wanted to. But there is a satisfaction that I would never regret this, that this would be one moment I would cherish. Maybe my smile arises to veil the sadness of my loss, or maybe, from the satisfaction of having given it all I had to give. Anyhow, I am smiling, and that is all that matters.