And I am no actor. But on my way to being one, I seem to have lost myself, what I always was. Pretention isn't something I've ever been good at, and yet I've been forced to practice a lot of it. I've always been me and yet I no longer am. Whatever I'm made to do, is not not something I ever wanted to. Copying assignments just for the sake of it, cramming for tests and yet ending up learning nothing, being everywhere and yet unseen, unnoticed. College has passed like a blur, and I'm tired of running. Running a race with a non existent finish line, just going on because everyone else is doing the same. When was the last time I watched a ManU game and felt elated at their performance? When was the last time I opened the newspaper and read it endlessly until I slept? Not in the recent past.I've been working on a story that needs my attention, just as I myself do. I've forgotten what it was to be at peace with myself, because I am me, and not an actor. And the world is not a stage...